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Thursday, March 16th, 2006
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I'm officially old! Nyeee!
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Monday, February 20th, 2006
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I need suggestions for good books. I want to read! Yes. A new pastime.
I hear that The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath is a good read. Apart from being underrated, it's hard to find.
Today is a Coldplay day, A 29th month mark with Edan and again, just another boring day.
I'm actually doing the dinner now. CIAO. later.
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Daryl Lapuz: ibang iba k na tlga.
dihjeixx: why?
Daryl Lapuz: nthn
Daryl Lapuz: dati nanapak ka e
Daryl Lapuz: hehehe
dihjeixx: AHAHHAAH
dihjeixx: natatandaan mo pa pala yon
dihjeixx: ahahaha
Daryl Lapuz: oo
Daryl Lapuz: gnagawa mo nga me punching bag minsan pag galit ka e
Daryl Lapuz: hehehe
dihjeixx: AHAHAH
a conversation i had with my elementary classmate and busmate.
ang cute. hahaha
NOTE:
he's Daryl Lapuz
i'm dihjeixx
(we share the same name)
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Monday, January 9th, 2006
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i just reaalized that i misplaced a lot of things important to me.
my globe sim card. my regular line sim card.
- i left it at mom's bed. most likely, the three cats are responsible for this. haha
my only violet shirt
- it's not expensive at all, in fact i just got it from anonymous uhm, 4 years ago.
it's so special cause it's the only violet shirt i have/had.
my 4th year grades
- my highest grade is 90 and my lowest is 88. ain't that all the reason to be bothered? haha
my UST white bandana
- edan just stole it for me, so it's SPECIAL. hahaa
i'm so clumsy. i'm too old to be clumsy.
will i never learn?
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Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
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| Subject: | missed. |
| Time: | 4:29 pm. |
| Mood: | upset. | | Music: | The Juliana Theory - Musicbox Superhero. |
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Kill
Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes
It's just like being alone
Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away
So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant
I can't help it baby, this is who I am
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
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Monday, December 12th, 2005
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| Time: | 7:27 pm. |
| Mood: |  indifferent. | | Music: | Jimmy Eat World - Kill. |
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i just stayed home today. supposedly, i have a training. but i skipped it today.
so for today, i performed the following as to make it a "productive" one. haha
1. refreshed my closet.
-- i put out all the old clothes, unwanted clothes and outdated clothes.
2. i organized my accessories.
-- i nailed some device and hanged all my thingamajigs.
3. washed all my bags.
4. read a good book.
5. checked my mail.
6. arranged my photos.
7. i cooked the dinner!:) haha
seems to me.. that today is very satisfactory. though i was really bored this noontime. and someone offered to deliver me french fires cause he's also craving for one. haha. tomorrow's a tuesday. edan has classes until 5pm and so far i still got no plans for tomorrow. if i'd be bound here for the next days? i'd rather just make gifts for people this christmas. haha what's up with me? i'm content with just staying home and making the most out of it. haha so not me.
so this reminds me of one incident that took place just last week.
i told raquel that i'm half-way quitting cause i'm not liking the people i'm with during trainings. i just reasoned out that i'm not in the vibes to get along with "them" she said, "huh? you're giving up?"
i told the same thing to my mom, and she went like, "that's it? are you okay?
and yeah, of course i told edan.. he just gave me this blank stare and said, "SO NOT YOU?!"
what the hell is up with that?
actually, i just felt that if they don't like me, i'd rather not push myself further. not that i badly need the slot. it's just an alternative choice, PLAN B. but given a chance? i'd rather just settle with the taekwondo team. less pressures. haha i like the setup where they're required to jog everyday. and what makes it more fun? the whole team. these people who have traits which can't be easily found elsewhere. they're definitely the nicest, warmest, wackiest people around.
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Sunday, December 11th, 2005
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yes i am. and lot of things have changed.:D
i'm gona be updating this more often.
i missed everyone here.:D
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the feeling is unexplainable. like i know i already have everything but there i was, asking for more. now in this four cornered room, i bury myself. killing my thoughts not to come over to his place. i hate it when i have to beg him to stay, to lay down and just be himself. i missed more than one half of himself. the silly, stupid and nonsense jokes that he told me, how stupid was he to took out an icecream for me and had to travel 1 hour to get to me. o well, i had it. milkshake already.
but you see? it was so stupid.
he was stupid and jackass. and i wanted him to changed. and so he did. i saw him worked hard to give the change i selfishly want for myself.. and when he finally gave it to me.. i wish i could just tell it back to him that i would like it more to see him at my doorstep at 3:30am in the morning with the cheap flowers he got from the bar he went to.. he's sober, sleepy but still made an effort to show up to me. like i asked him for that. i never said a word to him. but it was so good that he felt that i was kind of in need at that time. and now? I MISSED THOSE STUPID DAYS. i never really thought those stupid days were the glorious part of our lives. i heard a good music and he came into my mind. the striking words made me think how much more stupid i can become. i wanted to tell him i love him. but he's nowhere to be found.. i threw myself on my bed. the scent of lan vin lingered, i caught the nemo stuffed toy he gave to me on our 2nd monthsary staring at me with the big eyes and widest smile. i stood up to grab my cigarettes.. and when i stepped on my floor, my birk was there.. it used to be newly white before but now i don't know. right there and then i knew i missed him. and i can't do anything. i am crying my heart out for 3 hours and more when somebody pulled the pillow off my strangled arms, he said it would all be better for me if he's the one sandwiched between my arms.
and he knew me very well..
i needed him so bad.
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Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
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pang friends lang!
F R I E N D S
: P
W T H D Y C ?
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you haven't heard from me for a long time. :)
i bet you missed me. *kapal*
not much i have here.
my hair's short now.
lost weight. (?)
from fair to tan.
what else..
ok let's cut it short..
i'm better.:)
~~
jei.. call me again. anytime you're free.
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Sunday, January 18th, 2004
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it's my bestfriend's debut yesterday. for so many years that it's been a tradition that everytime her birthday will come, an instant reunion would take place. but last night was far different from the other year we've had. aside of course it's her 18th birthday, there were people who showed up that we never expected at all. the feeling was hard to define. the moment you see their faces from afar, little by little as they come near you wearing a smile that's getting biger and wider and bigger, you can't help but rush onto them and give them a tight hug. people you've never imagine would change not just physically but their total personality as well. there you are, rewinding the perfect way on how to spend the afternoon till night with your friends. you were there in the balcony sitting next to each other and counting all the cigarettes you've had. complaining why the beer your drinkin never seem to affect you at all. the feeling comes randomly. one minute you are so happy and the other minute when silence starts to set in, you'll feel like crying. 10 years may not seem enough to assume that you'll go far together. but looking back and doing the same thing we used to do way back then, when we were still naive and careless, it gives you the feeling that somehow, you are so lucky to have those people around you. someone to complement how good you looked on that striped, colorful dress, someone to give you that strange look for no reason at all, someone who'll mock you and lie how beautiful you have become. someone to say how cute your boyfriend is and ask where on earth did you caught him. people, who are, just one look in your eyes, a light tap on the shoulder, assures you that time may seem out of hand, but at any cost, would do their best to be there anytime you need them.
and it makes you say, "Thank you God for my friends.." :)
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Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
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merry xmas everyone :)
miss ya'll.
happy bday krik, happy bday raquel.
happy bday to me. :)
enjoy the yuletide season guys. *mwaaah*
PEACE ON EEEAAARTHH! :)
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Monday, September 22nd, 2003
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shet. namiss ko kayong lahat. swear.
i dont know what's wrong, my modem or the provider itself.
:)
di na ko single! :)
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Monday, September 1st, 2003
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Monday, August 11th, 2003
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not to offend anyone or anybody with my last post.
but i honestly didn't mean to harm anyone during i wrote that.
peace. :)
it took me about decades to update this journal.
stupid destiny's not operating well again.
so many things happened.
i was introduced to gino. twice now. :)
*asteeeg!*
and everyone hates purker now. but i don't. i don't know.. i just can't seem to hate him not even a bit. :( fact is that,.. i miss him terribly. as in.
micheal's getting serious day after day. he surely gives too much effort just to impress me. and yeah.. i do appreciate that. all of it.. from buying me twoster fries and apple pie up to the point where mom asked him to find her "sibuyas tagalog" at 10 in the evening.
mr. moon... uhm.. i think i'll pass this for now. something happened and i just can;t find the right label/definition for that.
and oh by the way.. i'm in a lanshop now. since destiny's fucked up i've to rent so to just update my lj. i've been itching for a week now. :) i miss all of my friends along with their rants and raves.
jaynery's accompnying me right now. i'm hungry and i want dewberry. :) hehe
nadine, therese, raquel and i are getting closer as more of buddies. more of tropa...
i actually think we're now best buddies :) along with tropa car, tropa food, tropa gesture, tropa spot.. i know things would work out to the best day after day.
speaking of tropa... we have a tropa cat. last saturday when we were having our usual foodtrip at the canteen, i saw this kitten and gushed. i was surprised after couple of minutes when the cat was above our table. lionel caught it for me. :) SWEET.
i miss all of you friendoooos. :)
i'll just go and get myself some dewberry. :)
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Wednesday, August 6th, 2003
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| Subject: | yey!! |
| Time: | 1:57 pm. |
| Mood: |  bitchy. | | Music: | (yung nirecord namin nila miko at raquel). |
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weeeh. im in school now. :)
with aa, bry, raquel and mr. moon. :)
just realized how we stormed the canteen during lunch time. actually the first time we ever act up so stupid again. after such a long time. :)
MR. MOOOOOON! :)..
special mentioned a :)
si bryan busy kay sarah geronimo niya.
siyempre si aa, after stalking with that paolo kid the whole lunch period.. she's now ondulging herself with f4stuffs. she prolly nedded that to keep her going. HAR
just recieved a text from therese and nadine.. nasa cuenco daw sila. hehe.
namomobroblema si raquel kung sino sasama niya sa team niya. hindi daw niya pala team. kay sir rocky daw. nahihiya daw si raquel. AAAAAAH HIYA DAW OOO!!!!! :P
pumapaolo na naman si AA.
TANGINA DAW SABI NI BRIAN!
SI MR. MOON NIKIKILITI AKO!!!
kelangan daw ng audition, raket at pera ni brian
kakabasa lang ni raquel. o. may text na naman sila therese..
"i like it, i like it.. let's go to this place.. i need to go to this place"
"yeah this is really something huh!"
inuulol na tuloy ako!!!!!!!!
pakinggan daw namin ni raquel yung nirecord namin nila miko.. :D
"tangina ang kulet ni miko"
"ang ganda ko talaga" - raquel..
(nagmamaganda na naman po..)
what?!?!
this is bullshiyet!
(what's bullshit...?)
kapapancit lang daw ni brian.. mag papanchiterya na naman.
pupuntahan ba namin sila nadine?
(pwede.. baka magalit yun noh!)
MR. MOOOOOON! :)
san daw yung northpoint.
btw. nakita ko si PURKER KANINA!! :)
PURKERKING BADING
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Tuesday, August 5th, 2003
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I'm dressed all in blue
And I'm remembering you
And the dress you wore
When you broke my heart
I'm depressed upstairs
And I'm remembering where
And when, and how, and why
You have to go so far
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
I'm dressed all in white
And I remember the night
You came on to me
And opened up my heart
I was hollow then
'Til you filled me in
Now I'm empty again
I should have never let it start
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
No one else can fix me
Although sometimes my heart tricks me
Into thinking someone else will do
But you're the only one
You are the only one
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
So come around
So come around
I'm dressed all in blue
And I'm remembering you
And the dress you wore
When you broke my heart
~
don't know what went wrong.
it's just that.. i wouldn't want to show how affected i am.. until my friends told me how frustrated they are.
we we're just fine yesterday.. :[
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i think you love me.
brian told me to set everything straight starting tomorrow.
bid goodbye to those who deserve to be dropped.
say hello to the people who deserve such treatment that other people fails to appreciate.
sing my song loud and nevermind the spectators
walk down the catwalk and stride as graceful as i wish
live my life not according to what is right but according to what i feel.
*he made sense. but i don't think i did.
har
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